A rambling epic of second-guessing myself
Having finished one week of too many midterms, projects, meetings, and project proposals, I flew out to Boise to relax and reduce my workload to reading for only three classes/projects. Spring break was a lot more relaxing than I had intended, at least as far as school work was concerned. I sadly did not get around to much more than reading about SOAP and a few articles about Bayesian spam filtering. This week I'm gearing back up to put those hours I don't spend sleeping towards something that will at least result in a nice G.P.A.
Tonight I should be studying for the graphics (EECS 466) midterm I have tomorrow. Unfortunately I've hit that point where my brain will not absorb any more material that I have no interest in. My incentives for staying in this class are rapidly dwindling. I don't care about the material. A three-hour lecture that gave an overview of the graphics pipeline would be more than enough for me. I have no intention of pursuing graphics beyond this course. The project that I will be working on for the remainder of the semester for the course, involving object collision, is not something that interests me all that much. When I enrolled in the course, I had originally decided to include this course as one of those to double count toward both my undergraduate and graduate degrees. Right now my reasons for not withdrawing from the course mainly center around the amount of time I've already put into the course. The idea was to take an extra course this semester so that my last semester here could be almost wholly devoted towards finishing my thesis. At this point I feel guilty spending so much time on a subject that I'm not interested in when I could be spending the time on a subject I am interested in (my thesis). I'm still at war with myself over whether or not I should cut my losses before starting the semester project and withdraw, or tough it out and get something back for the time that I've invested in the course. This is the first time I've really felt the effects of signing up for a course thinking I would be interested in it only to find out relatively quickly after drop-add was over that I wasn't. I can only accept this as payback for not adequately determining what the course would offer. Since the midterm will likely determine whether this will turn out to be the first course I've ever withdrawn from, I should return to reviewing the Phong model again.