Nostalgic about old times.

I can't believe I've been in Cleveland for exactly a year now. I've completed my first year of graduate studies. I've changed roommates, friends, peers. I feel I am a different person, again. Undergrad just seems blurry to me. I haven't talked with my old friends for months. I haven't talked with some of them since graduation!

I got immensely nostalgic when I was randomly browsing a photo album of one of my old friends. Then I started browsing another photo album of another very good friend of mine. The crazy pictures and funny captions made me laugh. I haven't talked with them for a crazy long while, and they were in such a huge part of my life... only two years ago.

They looked so young in these pictures. I looked young. We were... 19, 20, or 21 back then? We weren't exactly kids, but we had that naivete 'look' when we were posing in these pictures.

I'm only 22 now, turning 23 in a few months, but I feel I aged at least three years, in a year. Perhaps it is because my new set of peers range from 25 year olds to Professors. Although I am still known for my excitement, enthusiasm, and optimism, I have lost a lot of my old naive thoughts, innocence, my old bright-eyed-bushy-tailed demeanor and (oh no!) am starting to become jaded. Serious. More calm.

However, I am beginning to realize what I want now. What I want out of my life. My confusion about what I wanted was bothering me. Now I am slightly less bothered.

Sigh, I do miss old times though.

Comments

Posted by: Dianna
Posted on: August 14, 2006 04:18 PM

i know what you mean about being nostalgic! Think of what it'll be like 50 years from now! At least our boobs haven't gone south yet

Posted by: concerned member
Posted on: August 26, 2006 03:51 PM

why are you so confused?