Not a fan of BS anymore and I can't even feign it.

I was so different back then.
I have no idea when the change took place but I am definitely not the person I once was.

I am tired of bullshit.

I am tired of immaturity.

I am tired of the little common phrases that people all tend to us in social situations when people have nothing to say.

I am tired of people not taking serious things seriously.

I am tired feigning enthusiasm, feigning happiness, feigning interest, feigning confidence, feigning feigning feigning -- basically being some thing I don't feel like being at the time. I'm not saying that I am forced to be someone I don't want to be because perhaps, I want to be more confident, happy, enthusiastic, etc, but not at that given time. If I don't like your joke, then I don't feel like laughing. If I find you boring, then I don't want to talk to you. Wow, that was harsh-- but do you know what I mean though?

Sometimes I feel like my life is just being swept away, tossed down a stream along with other people's lives, becoming entangled and ultimately resulting in more complications than necessary.

I want my life to be simple. I have goals and I want to get them accomplished. Don't get me wrong -- I am in love with people -- minus the drama and issues. I just don't want to be dragged down.

Maybe I'm just no fun anymore. Maybe I am getting too serious. I just don't like pretending anymore. I am not that girl who smiles at everything, along with everyone, and agreeing to everything and with everyone. I have developed what they call, an attitude.

Or, maybe I am just developing an attitude

to life.