Robsky

End of the Semester

So there are only a few weeks left in the semester here at Queen Mary, but to be honest i am happy. This experience was one of the best that i have had, but i am ready to be done. I feel as though i am 'tired' of it here. I am getting exhausted from simply being here and dealing with the differences in life, instead of adjusting to them. I am not trying to keep my ways, but i am having trouble adjusting to the way of life in that i tires me out. This must sound silly, but after so long, the excitement wears off and where reality should set it, but is replaced with discontent. I am not truly feeling relaxed her, i always feel as if i need to be on-edge. I guess is what i am looking for is a feeling of being home, which i get at school after a few weeks. But here, it is completely different, and after the rush of a new country fades and after the thrill of making new friends takes the back seat, what’s left is an empty feeling. This results in me not feeling homesick, but being 'over' with this experience.

To clarify, i guess i am not 'thrilled' with London. It is a fun city, with tons to do, and never a dull moment, but when i am at school, i don't always want that. If i were here, living and working, and making this home I’m sure that i would not be feeling the way i do. The thing is, when i go of to school there is a certain percentage of me that wants some boring moments, where all i can do is study. There are too many distractions here and all too often i put work aside as i think to myself, "well i will only be here for so long, so enjoy it." That attitude is not very good when you actually have classes that require some degree of attention and when you have papers to write.

So to be honest, i would recommend that if someone where wanting to study abroad, i would suggest going to a school outside the city where you are not constantly bombarded with activities and events and booze(well that’s everywhere). Because then you could come in for the excitement whenever you wanted it, but it would not be in your face.

So end, i would say that this does not feel like school, which is why i feel 'over' this experience. Instead this feels like a really long vacation. Don’t get me wrong, i love vacations, but after a while i want to get back to my life, as it tires me out.

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This is a sad entry as i really have enjoyed everything that i have done, but it has taken a toll on me, therefore it is getting hard to love everyday as i did when i first arrived.